Lindsey, Rest In Peace.♥

Dear Lindsey,
It's August 23rd, 5 months and 14 days since the world lost you. We all still miss you, more and more each day. We'll never get to know what you were thinking the day you went through with suicide, all we can hope is you've found peace with yourself and your decision, and that you're in the place you've always wanted to be.
I wish I could have more answers, like why? Why did you do that? What were you thinking that night? What things were bothering you so badly that that's what you chose to do? Nobody here will ever know just exactly what happened. Or why you did it. But we hope you've found heaven, and I hope you're having a lot of fun there.
I miss you so much, girl. I know, at the time of your death, we hadn't been as close. And it makes me feel terrible. I should have been there for you more. Way more than I was. Maybe if I had been, you would still be here. We wish you would have just talked to someone, anyone, when you were feeling so depressed. We all would have helped you, in a heartbeat we would have.
You always knew what to say to people when something was wrong. You cared about everyone else so much, a lot more than you cared about yourself. That was one of the most amazing qualities about, and in the end it proved to be one of your downfalls.. You cared so much about everyone else being happy, that your own happiness didn't matter to you.
I go see you as much as I can. And every time it's not any easier, because the girl I've shared so many laughs with... I now have to go to a cemetery to see.
Lindsey, I know you never meant to hurt anyone. But you hurt so many people who loved you so much when you chose to do what you did. But we all still love you, because we know how much pain you were caused in your life. We just wish you could have told us. You left behind a lot of people who cared about you and loved you. Just about everyone did. But we still love you, Lindsey. And we always will. Don't you worry, you will never ever be forgotten. Ever.♥
I remember every memory I have with you, Lindsey. And those ones are the ones I'll remember forever. I wish you were still here so we could make more. We always had fun when we were together, always. Haha. Like in gym class, and the horse sweater. Not doing our Research 9 work, and doing quizzes on the internet instead. "How emo are you?" "What hairstyle fits you best?" You were TOTALLY emo. Hahaha. (: And the blue balls in gym class. HAHAHAHAHA. I will never forget that conversation. When we decided that girls need their own special toilet to pee in since boys have one for them. SO UNFAIR. We were gonna invent one.. We can't now.. I wish we could.♥
You will never be forgotten, Linds. I promise. Pinky swear. And you are welcome to visit me anytime you'd like.
I miss you so much Lindsey. So much. We all do.
I love you, girl. ♥
Stay beautiful, babydoll.
Sami. ♥